Nervous, confused and curious was how i felt while waiting outside the surgery room. my mind seem to be in complete disarray, while waiting for my turn, all alone.. Fortunately, nabillah and charmaine gave me sms-es and nab called me to give me support. thanks adeq iza, nab, maine, razeef, shaheezan, maisara, maisharaqh, ira, lin, fatin, and everyone who gave me support =)

okay, when i was in the SURGERY ROOM, the doctor had prepared himself with surgery dress. i told him to be careful with my swollen lips that i accidentally hit with the drawer. imagine not sleeping while surgery and you only get bused..GOD, im wide awake.

he put this medicine like vicks on my gums, which was damn HOT. then, my heart gave a huge leap when i saw this injection like 10 times the size of my injection pencil. as he injected my gums, i started crying (for the first time) when i felt the sharp needle piercing through my gums. OUCH! it was painful! i started to become restless so i pinched myself in order not to hurt anyone in the room..haha! he injected 3 times. finished injecting, i tried to hold back my tears.

My mouth felt numb. next, my body was covered with the green surgery cloth and my eyes were covered (more to tied) to a surgery cloth. my nose was itchy so i scratched it. but the nurse was like "EH! DONT TOUCH THE CLOTH!" so i pretended to be innocent and kept my hands back in. she then placed this metal thing over the cloth on my hand to prevent me from moving..wth. i'm not someone from mental hospital going for surgery.

i cant see anything! all i saw was a glimpse of light through the cloth. i dont really feel the pain when the process of cutting the gums was carried on. thats the purpose of injecting. i could feel something hard on my gums ah. and the sounds of scissors snipping.

patches of water was seen on the cloth on my eyes when the doc did something on the part where i didnt get bused. i dont think he knew that i could feel the "unexplainable pain" until i moaned. i felt the needle, size of a toothpick pierced into the "un-bused" gum. to control the pain, tears rolled down my cheeks again. my face was like so crumpled (like a toasted bread.) haha! And that's also when i could feel blood spurting out and flowing down my throat. my legs were so stiff.

he sew my gums and i felt this string on my lips. did he tie a knot? ohh..i dont wanna know..

finally, it was done. those parts of my face not covered (like the nose and cheeks) were splattered with blood. when my eyes were uncovered, i saw the doc's surgery dress with splatters of blood and his gloves was full of blood at the fingertips. luckily im not a person who's afraid of blood. or else how can my ambition be a nurse right? =) lol

out of the room, the aunty waiting for her turn was like looking at my swollen mouth with great fascination. i started to feel the pain and i jux cant hold back my tears. the aunty was confused. i think cos i was crying all alone with no one to seek comfort. my mom wasnt there, dunno where she went. my mom didnt even want to look at my face. my eyes were swollen cos i cried, and the sight of my swollen mouth scares her.

at home, i started to burst into tears when my numbness was gone. and i could feel all the pain worse than ever! i didnt expect myself to cry this much and i didnt expect it to be THAT PAINFUL. i had to change the gauze drenched with blood almost every 5 min. and yeah, i cant eat. but i'm hungry!

to those who are gonna wear braces, dont worry. this surgery only applies to me bcos i got thick gums. so far, i've never heard of anyone going through the same thing as me. dont take my surgery too hard. i'm just sharing my experiences...

the surgery room..

purposely took pic like this so the swollen mouth isnt obvious. ugly eh..

L O V E S:

- Family
- Friends
- Donuts
- Sushi
- Takoyaki
- PINK
- Cycling
- Badminton
- Listening to music
- DANCING
- Laughing
- Admiring cute magnets (those stuck at the fridges)
- Playing at the monkey bars and swing
- Prefers soupy food than fried food
- Eating Quails eggs (telur burung in malay)



W I S H E S:

- Paris Hilton Can Can perfume
- Driving license
- Visit to Universal Studio
- Go snorkelling
- Visit Hong Kong disneyland
- Visit Hong Kong Wax museum
- My own DSLR camera